You’re not alone if you’ve ever thought, why do I sabotage myself—like, truly, what is this pattern where I keep torching my own goals?

You finally commit to doing the thing:
✨ Join the gym
✨ Ask for the raise
✨ Start the book, the boundary, the relationship
And then… you just… don’t.

Cue the spiral:
“Why do I always do this?”
“What is wrong with me?”
“Maybe I’m just lazy.”
“Maybe I don’t actually want it.”
(Plot twist: you do want it. You’re just exhausted from dragging your nervous system along for the ride.)

Let’s talk about self-sabotage—what it is, where it comes from, and how it might actually be your brain trying to protect you.

Spoiler: You’re not broken. You’re just tired of surviving.

What is self-sabotage (and why do I sabotage myself)?

Self-sabotage is when you get in your own way—again and again.
You want something… and then unconsciously block it.
It can look like:

• Avoiding what matters most
• Ghosting opportunities (or relationships)
• Overthinking every choice
• Downplaying your wins
• Procrastinating until your nervous system is fried

It’s that weird experience of being both the dreamer and the destroyer.

And while it can feel like self-betrayal, it’s more often self-protection—built from old pain your brain never quite sorted out.

Could this be a trauma response in disguise?

Here’s the reframe that changes everything: What if self-sabotage is your nervous system doing its best to keep you safe?

Not safe like “no sharp objects”—but emotionally safe.
Like: “don’t get too visible,” “don’t want too much,” “don’t risk disappointment.”

If you grew up in chaos, criticism, or emotional neglect, your system learned that it’s better to stay small, quiet, or pleasing. And anytime you try to expand… your brain hits the brakes.

Self-sabotage = your body’s way of saying “we’ve been hurt here before.”

So… how do I stop sabotaging myself?

Let’s be real: reading motivational quotes won’t fix this.
(Though we do love a good Brené Brown moment.)

What helps? Getting to the root of the pattern—especially if that root is complex trauma.

At Empower Counseling, we use EMDR, a bottom-up therapy approach that goes deeper than talk. These methods work with the nervous system to:

• Identify the exact memories and beliefs that trained you to expect failure, rejection, or loss
• Process the emotional charge so those moments stop controlling your present
• Create safety in your body so you can take action without spiraling
• Reinforce new beliefs like “It’s okay to succeed” or “I don’t have to earn rest”

Bottom line: you don’t need more willpower. You need less internal war.

You’re not lazy. You’re a survivor with a tired brain.

If you keep wondering why do I sabotage myself—the answer might live in your past, but the solution is in your present.

These patterns are changeable. Your brain can learn new rhythms.
And no, you don’t have to hit rock bottom to deserve help.

At Empower Counseling, we help people untangle the patterns they’ve carried for years—and feel more like themselves (not just “functioning”).

If you’re ready to stop overfunctioning, overthinking, and quietly imploding… we’re here.

Ready to get out of your own way?
Book a free “start here” call and let’s figure out what your nervous system’s been trying to protect you from—and how to help it finally feel safe.